ALONE....!!!

ALONE... The word itself is so diffrent tht buy reading or writing it, you feel so diffrent from inside, when i write or think abt that, i feel so diffrent from inside tht i dont feel lik doing anythning. if i m in a crowd, then to i feel that i am the only person standing...i am leaving with ths word since long time, sometime i get out of it, bt again it joins me some or the other way..the word says, i wont leave u till u die. may b the word it self get some one,one day, so tht she can leave me.. there are so many possitive and negative being ALONE...as everything in this word has to sides of it. i am happy or i just feel that i m happy being alone, bt m i really ?thts still a question for me, which sometime i answer bt as soon as i do..i feel m wrong.. there are so many things in life tht u want an answer for it, bt till the end u dont get it..

i am trying to find answer to it...as i was talking about possitive and negative..

i hve found something strange abt all ths..i can thnk much better whn i am alone bt at the same time. i feel i would be with some one i could think much better..when i am alone. i listen to very sad music whic ends up with very sad mood, then i think y shud i sit alone and hear such music, which make me sad..being sad ends up with drinks and not talking to other s which is good, u spend time alone atleast bt can this thing could b continued always..? again a question mark...life plays diffrent role everyday..its not same everyday or infact every hour it chnages...is it good to be a moody person...or being ALONE do we miss anything ?i m looking forward to my answers for the question i hve in my mind...will i ever get my answers or wil just spend my life lik ths..as m doing it today .... i dont knw m happy or sad? i dont knw m doing right or wrong , bt ya some time i feel good to b ALONE and some time i dont...

ThIngS Ch@nGe......

hi guys....i have come up with a new topic as u can see the head line...i was just sitting and thinking abt how time has changed..so just thought of putting my feelings or thougts in words let c how succes i get in it...
Sitting and watching idot box, suddenly something came on my mind about how time has changed... i went to past something 15 years back when i was a kid, i was very naughty and i used to think how i am going to b and where i wil be after 15 years... i nevr thought things wil change from school to college,pocket money to salery. i used to thing when i was kid that i should also have beared and mustach but today when i have it i get pissed of by shaving everyday, i used to think i also need to drive but today i m angry by taking family from here to there as i can drive,how simple things have changed which never thought of...used to wear a local jeans whic shifted to branded one, thngs are getting branded day by day,used to pay 10 rs for a hair cut which is 250 rs now, today we pay 70 rs for a coffee and 300 for a pizza whic never thought of...we go to big bazzaar for shopping instead of a rashan shop...we pay by card instead of paying cash..we pay so much in things which has no use but still fight to a sabiji waala for a 1 rs.or to auto rikshwa waala...who thought tht travelling in a non a/c train will change one day to a flight..just to save some time...used to fight for 5rs and today if we loose 100bucks we dont care...talking in a phone by hidding our self or when our parents are not around, which has changed to a mobile phone and talking hours together without fear... we spend 1000rs as a mobile bill per month,whic was th bill of our land line 15 years back for 3months...things lik ths has changed and we dont even care as we are busy or have no time to waist our thoughts on it...while we spend 110rs for a beer which was a tough job to even think abt it...drinking them by paying so much, today we dont even bother to think abt it,paying for water while we r in a train we spend almost 80rs which i never thought 15 years back i remember my mom used to carry a big container of water..bt today who does that...atleast i dont..
there are so many things whic still i can think of but till now wtt i was thinking i have put it in my words....thts wtt life is ................!!!!!!!!!!!!!